Nascent

I can’t wait to see your eyes,
and show them things they’ll never forget.
You’ll see things that you love,
and those that you’ll regret.

I can’t wait to hold your hands,
they’ll be so soft and tender.
A warm touch of innocence,
before which all would surrender.

I wish to see your first steps,
following you from the time you crawl.
I’ll always be by your side,
to catch you when you fall.

I wonder what your first words will be,
I wonder how you’ll sound.
Patiently I’ll listen to your voice,
I’ll always be around.

I can’t wait to hear your dreams,
and witness all your choices.
Would you fight your demons,
or succumb to your vices?

I want to hear your heart beat,
I wish to hold you near.
But there was no pounding,
and I was struck with fear.

I wished to do so much,
and so much I wished to say.
But my fate is cursed by demons,
for bitter circumstances took you away.

Aberration

When I was conceived,
was the happiest I had ever been.
No troubles, no gloom,
and no unnecessary strife within.

I was but a baby,
blossoming through one and two.
I had no simple worries,
of the world I was coming to.

I knew I had a mother,
and all her love and care.
She’d hold me and console me,
if I were in despair.

I knew I had a father,
so brave and so strong.
With his mighty wisdom,
how would I ever go wrong?

I knew I’d make friends,
who’d stick through thick and thin.
When I’d find true love,
a new relationship would begin.

Then I felt this sudden pressure,
breaking what would be my limb.
Tearing every part of me,
all my hopes were growing dim.

They pulled my pieces out,
and threw them in a bin.
Was I such a hindrance,
that I was rejected from within?

Didn’t my mother love me?
Is this what daddies do?
Denied of a beautiful life,
my dreams never did come true.