Absolution

In plastered memories and daydreams,
I traveled into vast endlessness and the brink of sanity.
I saw light bend like mortals before power.
I witnessed the face of Hades in shadows darker than Erebus.

Moving my fingers ever so gently through the fragile ripples of time,
so pleased to be lost in the chaos which made others lose their mind.
With eyes shut, I could see everything so clearly.
I could see through bitter intentions, self-deceit, lies,
the absurdities and anomalies of being human.
Clearly enough to know where they stem from,
what they could do and how to sever them, effectively.

I knew that the parting of the sea was a cheap trick to murder.
I knew that freedom meant jumping from slavery to slavery,
thinking you had control when you are nothing but a subject to chemicals.
The daydreams ended. I woke up. After a million years, I woke up.

Slowly, I grazed the edge of tomorrow,
reveling in its naked beauty and all the petty marvels it held.
I shook hands with the future as it told me my time is near.
I waved at death who disguised itself as tomorrow.

I peeled the skin off my flesh and the flesh off my bones,
tearing all the masks one by one till there was nothing left.
Shedding skin, shedding fears, becoming one,
unlearning, learning and growing towards the end.

Nothing could faze me as I no longer belonged here.
I could sense vibrations as they crawled through my conscience,
resounding, echoing off and destroying every notion I held true.
My walls broke along with me. Absolution was near.

I could hear the songs of the dead,
breathe their memories like fresh air.
Their words made me colder,
their mistakes made me wiser.

Deeper and deeper delving into darkness,
hearing all the pleasures the world had to offer and more.
Surrendering to myself, accepting myself in all its unacceptable glory,
I achieved what most humans can’t even touch.

I am reason. I am logic. I am absolute.
I am life. I am death. I am nothing.
I am love. I am hate. I am passive.
I am time. I am space. I am antimatter.
I am a catalyst. I am change. I am revolution.
I am destruction. I am evolution. I am the end.
I am sound. I am silence. I am disturbance.
I am the third eye. I am beyond the sixth sense. I am God.

Within me I held the power to change,
seasons, time, place, thoughts and everything else that I could touch.
Within me lied infinity, the end of time and countless possibilities.
I embraced the end knowing that my mind is the universe.
The universe is me – ever growing, endless and absolute.