It was a cold winter day. Another snow storm was coming in from the western mountains. The entire region had been dressed in white for three years now. It seemed like the prelude to Ragnarök. Clans had begun fighting over resources, brothers killed brothers, violence and turmoil plagued the streets. Nothing was safe. Those who saw it coming ran to the shores and left their homes and memories behind. Traditional family names collapsed like delicate snowflakes that disappeared with the wind. People took to cannibalism while looting and raping became common. Men who wore the crown of reason soon became devoid of it. They threw their better reasoning and moral logic to the dogs like bones after supper and embraced their primordial instincts to survive at any cost. There was complete chaos. The entire population of the region was reduced to half. Their world, their culture, their hopes and dreams for a better future were all about to end. Even the gods turned their backs on them. They were doomed. Only a few managed to find refuge from the ongoing madness but the price they paid to be secure had left them completely broken.
In the forest of Hoddmímis holt, a man stumbled upon a small hut built in between giant tree roots. He barely had any clothing on and the snow storm was drawing closer. The forest would protect him but to what extent? Frostbitten and cold he opened the door to find a woman with her back turned against the door, mourning bitterly with her head placed on the ground below. She didn’t even bother to acknowledge the man. He stood there confused.
“Ma’am, do you mind if I come in? There’s a deadly snowstorm approaching from the western mountains, the likes of which we’ve never seen before… could I possibly take shelter here till it passes by? I promise you, I won’t be much trouble and I’ll be on my way once the sky is a little clear…”
There was no response from her end. She just continued crying.
“Ma’am…” he tried calling out again as he stood on the threshold.
She barely even lifted her head. The floor beneath was soiled with her tears. He forgot all about the storm and his predicament. He only wished to comfort the distressed woman. He looked around the house and there was no firewood or food. He ventured out, gathered wood and hunted for food. He returned within an hour to find her in the same position. She hadn’t moved an inch. He was standing on the threshold. He tried speaking to her again,
“Ma’am, I have brought some firewood and food with me… we could use this and survive the harsh storm that is about to befall… please, say something” He crossed the threshold.
“I-I don’t care” she said, “I have nothing to live for…”
“That’s nonsense; you have everything to live for…”
“What do you know about me? Why do you care? I just want to die!”
“I know the world is a complete mess right now but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t live… that doesn’t mean we should give up on life…”
“Mess… that’s such a kind word to use for the deafening madness that has ensued… do other people suffer this way? Don’t the gods love us anymore?”
“The gods are testing our will. I know you have suffered much but don’t give up on life just yet…”
“And why shouldn’t I?”
She was still weeping. Eyes closed, she whispered through her faint voice, confiding in this stranger whose face she hadn’t even seen.
“My family was destroyed by the winter. Their conscience and morals grew as cold as the harsh winds that covered this land. My parents were driven insane by hunger and thirst… they killed people and began feeding on them to survive. It wasn’t long before my brother did the same to them. I couldn’t forgive him but I had no choice… as sibling we had to stick to each other. Soon after that, a group of scavengers burned down our house and almost killed my brother. We fled to this forest and managed to build this house. We had lost everything.”
“Where’s your brother now?” The man impatiently intervened.
“Two days ago, while hunting for food, he was torn to shreds by the wolves that lurk this forest…”
There was a painful silence that echoed through the hut… a gentle chill swept by which sent shivers down their spines. She continued to speak in a wavering voice filled with sorrow.
“I lost everything… maybe even I am destined to perish… I just want to die… I don’t care if the winter claims my soul, or the wolves hunt me down or even if you murder me in order to survive… it doesn’t matter anymore… I have nothing left… ”
“You haven’t lost everything… yes you’ve lost your family and your home but you still have one thing…”
“What is that?” her pale voice inquired.
“Your own life… you are still alive. You can lie here and wallow all you want and die miserably or you could just turn around, get up and try to survive… your parents did what they had to, to survive… your brother did what he had to… they all tried… shouldn’t you to do the same to honor their efforts and their memory?”
“What would you know of the way I feel? What would you know of the horrors I’ve seen? I’ve seen my own parents being murdered and eaten. I’ve seen my brother being torn limb to limb by hungry wolves. The pain that I have endured burdens my conscience and paints my world black… It hurts so much to be this lonely…” her whispering voice turned aggressive, “If you can address my suffering, the efforts of my kin so casually then you must have not endured what I have. You don’t deserve to tell me what to do!”
“I agree… I may have not suffered as much as you have… I may have not suffered at all but I would still urge you to fight on… you have so much life ahead of you. Yes the world is in chaos but we have to rise above it. There are darker days ahead but there will be light soon after that… we can’t give up on this life that was given to us… we must fight to preserve it…”
The woman clenched her fist, raised her head quivering with anger, turned around scornfully and said,
“leav…”
but she bit her tongue in astonishment when she saw the man. Her eyes began tearing up again. She contemplated everything she said.
“Wh-What happened to you?”
The man was bloody and bruised badly. The flesh on his body barely hung onto his bones. His one eye had been slashed never to open again. He had deep cuts from swords all over his body. There were wounds inflicted by animals as the fang marks ran deep enough to reveal his innards. His left arm was hacked off and he could barely stand. His legs were frostbitten, a piece of cloth barely kept him warm as he shivered uncontrollably. Yet he stood there with the firewood and food he collected for her in his condition. Yet he spoke so calmly. What courage, what power of will!
“This is the price I paid to live. My family too was taken from me. Some by men, some by their desires to feed and rape and some by the wolves in the forest… I haven’t eaten or slept for days but I can’t give up now… I must survive for my family, for the future generation and mostly, for myself.” He said as he exhaled heavily.
He was on the verge of collapsing but still maintained his conscience. His indomitable will reflected in his eye that burned with an unconquerable passion. She had never met anyone like him. Shivers ran throughout her body. She realized how small her suffering was compared to his. She resented the fact that she had spent days moping around in comfort while others like him have been struggling to live, hanging onto every inch of their lives.
“I-I’m sorry…” she said, “there’s a little food here that you can eat, I’ll get you a blanket and treat your wounds.”
“Thank you for your kindness”, he said as he finally collapsed.
She rushed to him. He was still alive just exhausted. She nursed him back to health as the snowstorm ushered in violent cold winds. The little hut remained secure between the two giant tree roots. The storm went on for days destroying everything around them. His wounds didn’t allow him to move much but he had a few tricks that kept them safe.
Every time she thought of giving up, she’d look at him and find courage. He had sparked a light of hope in her that wouldn’t burn down so easily. He inspired her to love her life just as he did his. He showed her, through his courage that there will be troubled times ahead. There is going to be darkness but we cannot give up and shut our eyes just because there is no light for us to see. Even in darkness, a faint glimmer can show us the way. Light always follows darkness and we must never give up till we see that light. He saw it in himself and through him she was able to see it too.
When the storm passed, everything was destroyed. The trees were covered in ice. The animals were all frozen. Somehow, their hut remained safe for seven days. They both were in a deep sleep only to be awoken by the warm rays of the sun that seeped in through their roof. The nightmare was over. They had survived. The hope that they believed in overcame all their sadness, their losses and their grief. Their hope and zeal for life protected them from the wrath of the gods. They named their hut ‘Livet’. They lived together and bore children while preparing for the next winter.